Searching through the unknown,
Are my moist eyes, for a glimpse of yours!
A gush of wind when blown,
To caress me, with its soft touch,
I wonder if that as well is an act of yours!
Every silent moment I get to spend with,
Drifts my mind, taking a journey back into those times,
When I was living through your love,
Realizing little, the true value of those times.
Now that you faded into unknown realms,
I yearn to see you at least in my dreams!
Even while my eyes widened with shock,
Seeing your half paralyzed self,
With swollen and closed eyes,
I tried to be brave ma, and also full of hope;
That like always, you would get better,
And soon will be with me, in our own sweet little world!
Even when you were crying out of pain,
I tried sounding like a sage,
Trying to fill you with hope, with consoling words!
In the midst of all the agony,
When you still seeked my baby-belly,
My heart was torn apart ma, with a sharp pain.
I still tried to look neutral, as I took,
Your weak arm to feel it,
I can still feel your touch, when you had stroked it so lovingly,
As though imparting your blessings,
To that little life, you were so eagerly waiting to see!
I still can't believe that those -
Were my final moments with you in your senses.
For next when I had seen you,
You had drifted into that silent world,
From where, you could never return!
On your way to that dreadful ICU,
While I was kissing you -
I was fighting my fears, ma -
Afraid to lose you, to the merciless hands of fate!
Those brief moments I got to visit you again at the bedside,
While I was blabbering my heart out, in your ears,
I did spot a tear rolling down from your right eye.
Did you really hear me, ma?
Was that indeed a tear, shed out of helplessness,
Triggered by your subconscious mind - that was registering my words?
How I had longed to see at least a blink,
Of that weak, but beautiful brown eyes,
But all I could see was, just your motionless body,
Befitted with all sorts of machines.
Only sign of life being, those heavy labored breaths you were taking,
As though fighting a battle, to grab your life back!
With a numb mind, when I visited you the last time;
Little did I know, that you were soon going -
To succumb to the cruel hands of death!
As though you wished to see me - one last time,
You held on to your loosening grip on life, until I returned to your bedside the final time!
For soon after, Papa had come bewildered,
With the news that you have started sinking away!
We knew you were soon going to leave us,
Into that world so unknown -
And amidst the gasps, cries and advises pouring in;
I sat paralyzed, with all the held back tears, finally rolling down!!!!
Written on: Nov 21, 2012
